Why is it so hard to meet new people? Why do I hate it so much? I love going out and having fun with people - or at least, the idea of it. When it comes time to do it, I find myself making excuses to go out because I'm too damn nervous or just feel so asocial that I just don't go out. I want to have fun and go out but I get too scared.
When I meet new people, it's like every insecurity that I have becomes inflated and seems that much worse/noticeable. I'm always afraid of making a fool out of myself or looking stupid in some way. Does my hair look awful? Are my thighs too noticeable? Are my yellow teeth too obvious?
ED loves it. "Of course it does, of course they do, and of course they are!! You're pretty much damned no matter what you do...you are really ugly" "They are laughing at you inside, they're just too polite to say anything out loud" "You are just in the way right now. No one wants to include you, that's why it got quiet"
How do extroverts do it? How do people make friends so easily while other people like me find it so difficult? I don't think I will ever understand
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