With A Little Help From My Friends

I get by with a little help from my friends. This is so true right now. I am stressed as all hell as this semester is coming to an end. To top things off I confronted my roommate yesterday morning and it did not go well - which is not helping my stress level.


In times like these it is helpful to have a friend to bring you back to reality. To bring you back to earth. I get very overwhelmed very easily, and I worry very easily. I have told a couple of my friends how my semester has been going - especially with recent events with my roommate and they have been so wonderful to me. I have gotten texts from both Megan and Stephanie asking how I am. It feels good to know that you have friends that care and are there for you.


Seeing those messages gives me the strength to stand up to ED when he sais "There's  nothing wrong with your roommate, she isn't the problem - the problem is you!!" "There is no way you can call yourself a music student when you suck so badly at it!" "This is an example of what all your friendships will end up like!! You don't deserve friends anyway!"


Seeing my friends take the time out of their day to ask me how I am doing and genuinely care about me; to go out with me on coffee dates when I feel like shit or when issues come up proves ED wrong. It gives me the strength to say FUCK OFF!! and have proof to back me up. Words can not describe how important this is to me.


When someone you know is in a state like the one I've been in on and off for the past few weeks (well, lets be honest - like three years...) sometimes something as simple as a "Hey how are you?" can mean so much more than just a simple "Hey how are you?". When you hear ED saying something like the things listed above all the time, this gives people like me something tangible to stand up to ED with. Something to prove that they aren't  worthless.


It doesn't always work - there have been days where he retorts with "They just feel bad for you"  and "If they had anything better to do with their time, they would be doing that instead of talking to you". And if that happens, be patient. This is key to handling someone like me - patience. I will post something that can elaborate more on this paragraph at another time because it is like a 12 part post. Seriously, there are so many do's and don'ts when dealing with people like me.


Today, however, ED hasn't fired back with anything because I have the strength to not let him. And it's all because of a couple of very dear friends.